Reflections...

Judge one not by his charms but by his qualities!!!!

Thank you Jesus for so often speaking to me, I have to try and remind myself more often how many prayers of mine you've answered, I think I'll take a leaf from one of my heroes Afande O and literally write that list coz you are such an awesome God...I love u Jesus...I'm rushing out to do my hair but will finish writing this trail of thought when I get back, if I can remember it, lol...this is an incentive by the way to get me to finish writin this post later, I have like a hundred unfinished blog entries in draft form so...some people are weird, huh...hahaha...

Luv & God Bless y'all for now...:)

K, part 2...

So, I thought I'd be continuing my entry today but things change, I'm no longer feeling hyped enough to write about what I had wanted to earlier, the devil still continues to remind me of his presence, which is good in a way coz it keeps me on my toes, spirtually...there's all this drama going on and all, I can't really explain but what I can do is pray and pray I have and pray I will....

One thing I've learnt for sure though is our God is an awesome God, sometimes He'll bring us to and through all sorts of trials & tribulations only to make us stronger, so in the end we do win...I'm so thankful, too for the peace He has given me, I'm totally comforted by the fact that He has always and is always goin to be there, no matter what, for me, for all of us, through good and bad and there's no doubt about that...I'm uncertain about a number of things, real shaky sometimes, have my ups and downs, slip and fall, backslide, worry and all sorts of things but the only thing I'm certain of 100%, is God's love for me and that somehow makes everything else seem manageable...

I send out an honest heartfelt prayer to all the people involved in this madness, please God open their hearts up to you, use this experience as a means for them to get to know you, for those who haven't or for those who know you, to get to know you better...forgive those who don't mean well, please touch their hearts...we are all sinners and all have fallen short of your glory but in that same spirit, we all have hope in you father and forgiveness through you and we are free, if we choose...

For those being fought, buckle up, strengthen your armour, it's in situations like this when you really have to be a true warrior...when a soldier is hurt at war, they don't run back and hide and forget all the training they ever received, instead they keep on fighting, fight to get well, fight more strategically, and return to the battlefield even stronger than before...likewise, being christian soliders with the strongest armour of all, God's armour, nothing should be able to falter you coz life is hard, there are always going to be problems, I guess some problems are more complicated than others but we have to trust God, He that brought you to it, will definately bring you through it, ur light has to shine thru even in the toughest of times, there's no giving up...

And I know there's been a lot of hurtful things said, but we can't let it get to us, we instead have to be stronger and just give it all up to God...are we going to give up our lives and hide or stay miserable or whatever because of what someone else is saying or threatening to do, I am not saying those threats are not real by the way or undermining them, I do take them serious and I know they could be as real as it gets but nobody is promised tomorrow, not even today, it's not a sure deal that anyone is going to make it to the next second, alive and well, nobody knows that...you could go for a walk tomorrow and get hit by a drunk driver, heck even the garbage truck could back up into u when ur takin out ur trash and that could kill u...I've heard of really weird stories, people have fallen down stairs, adults, too and died so I'm sorry If I'm being too positive but I'm not going to let anyone ruin my life, I'm going to stay happy and thankful to God for each new day, each breath that I take...this whole situation has actually given me a whole new appreciation of life and has strengthened my faith even more, a whole lot of lessons to learn I think!!

So, I am moving on with my life regardless of the threats and messages I get or hear or anything, I know my God is good and If I've believed that for the last 21 years, nothing is going to stop me from continuing to believe that, some people just find joy in terrorising people and creating all this drama but it's only if you let it get to you, that it will...k,I really pity whoever has read this far, lol but I needed to vent, it's therapeutic, so my ka "personal shrink" once told me...I did have to get this out and hey, it is my space...I love u all & may God richly Bless!!

P:S Okay this is hilarious, since when did googled information = highly classified and top secret statistical information, puhlease, then Wikipedia should be published and replace the Oxford dictionary...God save us!!! Am out! This is a closed chapter!!

Posted by Kanyana on Friday, April 21, 2006 at 3:49 PM | Permalink