Reflections...

A bunch of things I'd LOVE to do...

2006-10-26T23:58:00.000-07:00

I really have nothing to blog about, wat’s new, eh, lol…so, here’s some filler material…these are in no particular order by the way…

1. Go to a big game, Lakers, Yankees, u get my drift…
2. Go to a major concert by one of my all time fave musicians, uhhm, that’s a long list right there so any one of em wud do…
3. Visit Israel, do the whole Jerusalem tour n all..
4. Go to VEGAS, I mean, that’s like self explanatory…
5. Visit Paris, E, kikoleko, haha…kiddin but it’s always been a dream, wud love to go with a boyfriend/hubby tho since it seems so romantic...takin a stroll down the Champs-Elyseesy, to the Eiffel tower, holding hands under the moonlight, lol...
6. Have a serious conversation with a celebrity, right now Brangelina is way up there on that list, I’d like to see for myself whether their whole humanitarianism thing is 4 real or just a front, I'm a people reader like that, :)
7. Go to a champagne party, some dude’s been rambling on and on and on ‘bout how HOT the ones he throws are, lol...
8. Go to St. Tropez (next day after the Eiffel tower stroll, :)), rent a yatch and party it up Diddy style...k, I know now my wish list seems a bit far fetched but hey, anything is possible, lol…
9. ADOPT a child or even children…I pray to even start by just sponsoring one/some as soon as I can afford it, tho with this whole Maddona biz, it might just have to stay at that, sponsoring I mean coz I’ve been having heated arguments with a couple of people ‘bout the whole adoption thing…
10. Visit a recording studio and record a song...hey If Paris can "SING", so can I, ha!

Song I'm listenin to rite now: Irreplacable- Beyonce (Bday Album)

Peace n Love! Bless!

Godliness...

2006-10-24T10:49:00.000-07:00

K, I read this in one of my devotional books yesterday and it was real challenging...taken from, " Simple Words of Wisdom, 52 virtues for every woman" and I'm sure men can relate, too...:)

"There is one spectacle grander than the sky, that is the interior of the soul." - Victor Hugo, 1862

Those ancient family photos tell the tale: my ancestors in sepia tones, peering out at me from the cracking pages of an album that dates back to the Civil war. I don't know their names, but I know they trace their lineage from the Stokes clan. Heavy overhanging brows, dark eyes, square jowls that become more pronounced with age- even with the dilution of generations, those dominant genes prevail. The family resemblance is remarkable.

I pray that, as I mature, the "family resemblance" that marks me as a daughter(/son) of God will be equally evident. For that is what we're called to, after all- to take on the characteristics of the One who created us in the Divine Image. The prime directive of spiritual life is not what we do, but who we are. It is the passion to become increasingly like Jesus Christ, the Elder brother of the family. It is the invitation to godliness. Paul makes the mandate clear: "Be imitators of God...as clearly beloved children, and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God." (Eph. 5:1).

The problem is, some of us mistake godliness for god-likeness. Like Adam and Eve, we fall prey to the temptation of wanting to "be like God". Then when we get a little spiritual truth under our belts, we start acting as if we're omnipotent and omniscient. True godliness, however isn't a spiritual trump card that enables us to exalt ourselves over others. It is the quiet, secret, inner longing to become more like Christ, to imitate our Lord and cultivate the fruit of the Spirit. In Phillipians 2, Paul exhorts us to "have the same attitude as Christ Jesus"- an attitude not of spiritual superiority, but of humility, of servanthood, of sacrifice, of love.

If Jesus Christ was, as the Bible claims, the earthly incarnation of the Divine nature, his life and ministry should give us an example to emulate. And what an example it is! Jesus loved. He reached out to those on the fringes of acceptable society. He fraternized with outcasts, embraced lepers, fed the hungry, offered hope to the despairing. He healed the sick, gave sight to the blind, set the captives free. He lived in grace, in forgiveness, in integrity.

This is the ancestral portrait. This is our spiritual gene pool.

Peace n Love! God Bless!!!

22 on the 22nd...

2006-10-23T20:57:00.000-07:00

I had such an awesome birthday, thanks 4 the shouts girlies, wish y'all were herre...it was a crazy cool weekend, went out for dinner on friday night with my cousins and a whole bunch of friends to this really classy restaurant downtown, delicious meal, lotsa wine. :) We then headed over to one of my cousins friends apartment to chill, which was A LOTTA fun...stayed up till almost 6 in the mornin, talkin and laughin about everythin, from love to politics to I don't quite remember what, lol...then Saturday night was off the hook crazy, k, seriously I feel so much older...so, I had plans with my gurl and some friends and the fact that I live way outta town and was downtown for my birthday weekend, I was really looking forward to doin more than just stay home so anyhow, we had all planned to go to this club but apparently everyone was still tired from the night before or some coz one by one cancelled, some actually just didn't show up but nywho, since I was really determined to go somewhere and was feelin so much older and oh so Miss. Independent, I decided to go out all by myself and honestly I haven't had a blast like that in forever...I met a ton of interesting people- some really awesome gurls who really rocked the party, then these two total HOTTIES, lol , who were such gentlemen, too, it was really cute and then some crazy NFL blokes, or were they basketball players, my hearing kinda started to dwindle after a while, lol, it was such a long weekend, no description fits those ones anyway regardless of their game but it was really an off the chain cool nite!! Then there was my right at midnite crazyy text message that made my birthday, :) I wonder how I even heard my phone, me of the "hearing problem", but I paused to read it right in the middle of dancing with like this really hot guy and that didn't go down too well, lol...Then on Sunday, my actual birthday, some very good friends of mine had me over for dinner, which was really nice, it was only pasta but it was my favourite kind, and then ofcourse we had cake- chocolate cake, twice in one weekend- super fattening but still oh so super yummy...:) And today some friends dropped off some wine and chocolates, more presents, yay, and a cookbook, and that topped off my ubberly fab birthday weekend!! Oh and speakin of presents, I gotta brag one more time, I got, well haven't yet actually gotten it but know I will sometime, an autographed BOOK by one of my fave authors, wink, wink E, thank you so much again KAWALIZ, and that funny vid P, merci aussi, it's bookmarked as a fave and I'm so goin to re-cycle it for so many bdays u know...:) I'm so thankful to God for another year gone by, great memories and even greater ones to look forward to, really thankful for all the BLESSINGS...Peace n Love!!!

Runaway Love...

2006-10-18T23:00:00.000-07:00

Yeahh, And it go a lil somethin,
Like, like this, Runaway love (x8)

(Verse 1-Ludacris) Now little Lisa is only 9 years old,
She's tryin to figure out why the world is so cold
Why she's all alone and they never met her family
Mamas always gone and she never met her daddy
Part of her is missin and nobody will listen
Mama is on drugs gettin high up in the kitchen
Bringin home men at different hours of the night
Startin with some laughs--usually endin in a fight
Sneak into her room when her mamas knocked out
Tryin to have his way and little Lisa says 'ouch'
She tries to resist but then all he does is beat her
Tries to tell her mom but her mama don't believe her
Lisa is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but get some clothes and pack
She says she's bout to run away and never come back.

(Hook - Mary J. Blige) Runaway love (x8)

(Verse 2 - Ludacris) Little Nicole is only 10 years old
She's steady tryin to figure why the world is so cold
Why she's not pretty and nobody seems to like her
Alcoholic step dad always wanna strike her
Yells and abuses, leaves her with some bruises
Teachers ask questions she's makin up excuses
Bleedin on the inside, cryin on the out
Its only one girl really knows what she about
Her name is lil Stacy and they become friends
Promise that they'll always be tight til the end
Until one day lil Stacy gets shot
A drive-by bullet went stray up on her block
Now Nicole stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but get some clothes and pack
She says she's bout to run away and never come back.

(Hook - Mary J. Blige) Runaway love (x8)

(Verse 3 - Ludacris) Little Erica is 11years old
She's steady tryin to figure why the world is so cold
So she pops X to get rid of all the pain
Cause she's havin sex with a boy who's sixteen
Emotions run deep and she thinks she's in love
So there's no protection, he's usin no glove
Never thinkin bout the consequences of her actions
Livin for today and not tomorrows satisfaction
The days go by and her belly gets big
The father bails out he ain't ready for a kid
Knowin her mama will blow it all outta proportion
Plus she lives poor so no money for abortion
Erica is stuck up in the world on her own
Forced to think that hell is a place called home
Nothin else to do but get her clothes and pack
She say she's about to run away and never come back.

(Hook - Mary J. Blige) Runaway love (repeats till end)

Yeahh, I can only imagine wat u goin thru ladies, sometimes I feel like runnin away myself, so do me a favour right now and close ur eyes, and picture us runnin away togetha, wen we come back everythin is gonna be okay, open ur eyes...

~Luda ft MJB~

Inspirational...

2006-09-30T23:19:00.000-07:00

The Prayer.

Andrea Bocelli with Celine Dion
Music by David Foster
Original Lyrics by Carole Bayer Sager

I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go
And help us to be wise, in times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way
Lead us to the place, guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe. The light that you give us
I pray we'll find your light, Will stay in our hearts
And hold it in our hearts, Reminding us
When stars go out each night. That in my prayer
You are the everlasting star. Let this be our prayer

There's so much faith, When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place, Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe, We dream of a world with no more violence
A world of justice and hope, Grasp your neighbor's hand
As a symbol of peace and brotherhood, The strength that you give us
We ask that life be kind, Is the wish
And watch us from above, That everyone may find love
We hope each soul will find, In and around himself
Another soul to love, Let this be our prayer

Let this be our prayer, Just like every child
Just like every child, needs to find a place,
guide us with your grace, give us faith so we'll be safe
And the faith that, You've lit inside of us,
I feel will save us, Let this be our prayer...
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With a Little Hope.

Often, it is through the most difficult days of our lives that we come to know ourselves and what is truly important to us. No matter how sad you may feel at times, be confident that hope will awaken with you tomorrow.Faith and courage reach out to you; take hold of them, and you will find that you will be able to smile again and truly be happy once more. How we deal with life is really a matter of personal choice, so choose to be happy. Find joy in the simplest things, and see beauty in each person you meet.When times are difficult, remind yourself that no pain comes to you without a purpose. Above all, trust in God's handcrafted plan that He has made just for you. Let Him love you through life's joyous and painful aspects; if you do, you will find inner peace and unending joy.
~Kelly Wolfe~
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Gods Time.

If life happens to deliver a situation to you that you cannot handle, do not attempt to resolve it. Kindly put it in the SFGTD (something for God to do) box. All situations will be resolved, but in His time, not yours...hope this blesses, it blessed me!! Peace n Love!!! God Bless!!

Lights, Camera, Action...

2006-09-25T22:47:00.000-07:00

Tryin out this new look, why a movie related template, uhhm, just coz...I was getting tired of my old look even though I'll say I'm going to miss it, my lil rocker-ish chic who so totally didn't depict me but I just thought was cute, my lil qoutes and poems on the side...well, It's always nice to try out new things, looked at a couple cute templates I'd like to try out in the next lil while, so brace for some regular changes...oh and earlier today I was telling my friend Nakamats how the popcorn picture on here makes me hungry so I concluded that maybe last nite or the nite before as I was looking for templates, I subconsicously picked this one coz I was hungry, there's a perfect explanation as to why I picked the template, lol...well, it's meant to make u hungry for more of my blog so hope that works, lol...

On a sad note, I heard some really terrible news yesterday morning about an old schoolmate's passing, very tragic...It really got me thinking on how each day should be spent as If it were our last coz we never really know If it is indeed going to be...all the petty things we all seem to make a big deal or fuss about that we really should just be thankful for...the fact that we're alive in itself is a blessing and instead of spending those treasured moments happy and wisely, most of us spend them miserable and complaining, bitter, stressed out, I know it's completely human, I do it but it's things like this that make me really appreciate being alive....may their souls rest in peace!! My prayers and condolences to their famillies...

Today on the otherhand was much brighter, thankfully, filled with so many blessings and just small ways that God used to show me that He is always there and can never ever forsake His children, in good and bad, in sickness and in health, I know I'm now even reciting wat might seem like wedding vows but God is our everything, He can never ever fail us, even at points in our lives when it might seem like it, He still is there, watching us, guiding us, loving us, If only we could surrender and completely trust Him, what a difference that could make...sometimes I wonder how He can have it all planned out, it's just blessing beyond words....a friend of mine I hadn't talked to in ages called me up today, too, and what he said really made me laugh, he was like, " so I heard you got saved, PRAISE GOD!!!" and he was laughing so I don't know whether he was being real, sarcastic or whatever but the way he kept asking me like he was in complete disbelief amused me...and our convo went on as usual after that but I guess it is kinda different since this is a person I last saw when all I did was go to the club, drink n all and I'm not condemning that but it's just a lifestyle that I'm not quite as accustomed to anymore so it feels kinda weird sometimes talking to my peers, especially those whose life revolves around that...

Nyway, and then I go to read Ms. Nakamatts blog and it's a letter to me, including a very silly dialogue we had one day, man, peeps might be tempted to think we were smokin dope or some that day but for real, that was very sweet, thank u kakazi, ur soooo special and I'm really glad we have that bond...I truly thank God for sending such beautiful souls my way...this past year has really contributed a lot to my growth, as a person, spiritually, physically, (I do need to hit the gym u know, lol) but I am extremely thankful for the different friends God has put in my life for different reasons...I'll leave the details for another day but to everyone that has crossed my path in one way or another, it's been great, a complete blessing, I've learnt so much!!!

Our God is such an awesome God, He really is!!

Same ol, celebs n some love quotes...

2006-09-21T17:28:00.000-07:00

...I know I've been a terrible blogger but life just seems to be really crazy right now, so much to do, too little time, sounds cliche but oh so very true unfortunately!! One thing for sure though is how grateful I am for each new day, like my previous entry, I'm all about new beginnings, a fresh start and It's all very refreshing! Letting go and letting God, turning my focus to the things that really do matter coz at the end of the day, it is about the choices we make...still trying to prioritize my life, stop procrastinating, blah, blah, all those never ending, 'same old' challenges but I'm certainly taking a whole new approach to overcoming them and praying for resilience...

...There's a Ugandan-Canadian Conference in Van city this October, can't wait to see what that's all about If I end up going, I guess the Canadian chapter of the UG-US confrences starts here and hopefully will be as good...

...What is it about celebrities that completely enthralls us? I dunno...I am one of those people that keep saying to myself, ohhh, they're no big deal and I so wouldn't freak out and go crazy If I ever got to meet one and so is my sister but here's a story, she who meets a whole lot of em thru her work and also having lived in L.A a long time n all was lucky to mingle with a few this past week and judging by the excitement in her voice when she called to give me the 411, she was almost as bad as a groupie, lol...It's hard to explain since y'all dunno her but trust me, not much excites her so hearing her go on and on 'bout this really amused me...just so u know, it was Bishop Desmond Tutu's birthday bash hosted by Denzel and a couple of other black (cute, lol) celebrities...he was a no-show probably coz he's busy filming that new movie but atleast she got to meet the likes of Samuel L. Jackson, who she said was kinda snobby at first, I'm trying to explain it like she did but it was kinda much, lol, he later chilled out though apparently when he finally believed that all she wanted was to just say hi and nothing more, dunno wat exactly he was expecting, uhhm, who else, Stevie Wonder, Magic Johnson, Bishop Tutu ofcourse, whom she described as very sweet and grandfatherly, aww, he just looks it nyway, Anthony Andersen, Blair Underwood, who she had like a half hour conversation with and kept on telling herself and him that she couldn't believe they were actually chatting, lol...and for the ladies, he looks even cuter in person apparently, lol...nyway, bottom line is it's really funny how celebritised (not a real word probably) we can all get....

Oh and speaking of the bash, my sister mentioned how the theme of the night was "Obuntu" which supposedly means the same thing in one of the South African dilects that it does in my language, a Ugandan (East African) dilect...I found that cool, a word having the exact same meaning and yet from such different parts of Africa...it means giving by the way or having a good heart...

Very, very random today, lol...but here are a couple of love quotes I found kinda interesting...

To live is like to love - all reason is against it, and all healthy instinct for it. ~ Samuel Butler~
...A simple I love you means more than money.... ~ Frank Sinatra ~
True love cannot be found where it truly does not exist, Nor can it be hidden where it truly does. ~ Anonymous ~
Love: a temporary insanity, curable by marriage... ~ Ambrose Bierce ~
To be in love is merely to be In a state of perpetual anesthesia: To mistake an ordinary young man for a Greek god Or an ordinary young woman for a goddess. ~ H.L. Mencken ~
Life without love is like a tree without blossom and fruit. ~ Khalil Gibran ~
Love is like war, Easy to begin but hard to end. ~ Anonymous ~
Seduce my mind and you can have my body, Find my soul and I'm yours forever. ~ Anon ~
I have loved to the point of madness; That which is called madness, That which to me, Is the only sensible way to love. ~ F. Sagan ~
One word frees us of all the weight and pain in life, that word is Love ~ Socrates ~
I have learned not to worry about love; But to honor its coming with all my heart. ~ A. Walker~
To love a person is to learn the song that is in their heart, and to sing it to them when they have forgotten. ~ Anonymous ~
And think not you can direct the course of love, for love, If it finds you worthy, directs your course. ~Khalil Gibran~
Love is like swallowing hot chocolate before it has cooled off. It takes you by surprise at first, But keeps you warm for a long time. ~ Anonymous ~ Haha...Peace n LOVE!!!!! God Bless!!!

NEW START...

2006-09-01T23:24:00.000-07:00

Today's Daily Word - Saturday, September 2, 2006

New Start...

I am making a fresh start, for this is a day of new beginnings.
Each day is a new beginning with its own opportunities. Right now, at this very moment, I am making a new start in life.
Seasons come and go, yet God's presence is constant. No moment from my past can cloud my vision for the good at hand. With God, all things truly are possible.
I trust God to guide me into new and prosperous ways of living. I share my dreams and goals with God, and then let divine wisdom refine them.
Just as today is a new beginning for me, I recognize that it is also a fresh start for everyone I know. So I let go of perceptions I may have formed about the people in my life in order to give them the opportunity to make a second "first impression." I trust God is guiding them to their own good.

"In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God."--John 1:1

Infomania & dirty pretty things...

2006-08-30T23:21:00.000-07:00

I know I haven't blogged in eons, no excuse really, not even the classic I didn't have the time but I just didn't feel like it, (this part is like for JKB and the basic 2 that do check my blog) nyway, it's kinda selfish I know, especially since I love checkin up on your blogs but oh well...y'all haven't missed much!

I've been reading a whole bunch of the Uncle John's Bathroom reader of late, which are quite interesting, they're filled with the weirdest, most random, sometimes useless, sometimes useful facts/information...but nyway, I was readin in one, how If you compulsively check your e-mail and are always on the internet, chatting or whatever then basically your an infomaniac, which is like duh, but what really piqued my interest was this study conducted, that showed a ten percent decline in the IQ levels of average workers/infomaniacs and a decline in productivity, because they were distracted by their e-mails, etc...this is more than double the four point drop seen in studies on the impact of smoking marijuana, scientists concluded, lol...kinda like ditch the internet, smoke the pot, just kidding but I'm now really careful 'bout the time I spend online and try to check my e-mail only once a day, don't wanna lose that 10%...

On a different note, I just watched a very intriguing movie, titled, "Dirty Pretty Things", I'd never heard of it before and I almost didn't watch it coz of the title but my curiosity got the better of me and I'm sure glad it did...it was really humbling and such an eye-opener to the perils of some immigrants and foreign nationals abroad. I doubt it was based on a true story, but most of it seemed pretty damn close to what I'm sure has happened or still does happen...the movie is basically about this Nigerian illegal immigrant and a bunch of other immigrants, in London, who are struggling to survive amidst the whole politics of being in a foreign country and on top of that as minorities...well, it really touched my heart and just made me thankful for all the things that I haven't had to go through, truly made me appreciate life, as most of us know it, and empathize with those that haven't been so lucky!!!

Daily Word...Experience...

2006-07-27T21:31:00.000-07:00

I am poised, strengthened, and at peace.

There is a common expression that experience is the best teacher. I see the experiences of my past as resources that will help me make wise choices in the future. Even an experience that I consider a mistake shows me what not to do. Seeming mistakes help me learn to trust my resilience and they contribute to my wisdom.

Devoting time to meditation, prayer, and contemplation, I make choices from an inner place of wisdom and peace. These are spiritual experiences that help me obtain a deep awareness of God that cannot be undone by any outer condition. In conscious communion with God, I understand my relationship with God and my relationships with the people in my life.

"Talk no more so very proudly, ...
for the Lord is a God of knowledge,
and by him actions are weighed."
--1 Samuel 2:3

Super woohoo Bible readings...

2006-07-21T22:27:00.000-07:00

"...God allows and uses this great humiliation to expose to Abraham his sin of unbelief and distrust. Yet, God does not tear down without building up again. Despite his failures, Abraham was still a prophet having power with God. How does God exalt Abraham after his humbling rebuke?" Genesis 20:7a, 17-18

If you as a child of God have sinned and brought disrepute on the name of God, then you need to do what Abraham and others have done.......TRULY REPENT. Turn completely away from sin and back to God.
Joel 2:12-13 / Acts 3:19 / Acts 8:22/ Luke 15:21

Then, as a child, trust in the patience and forgiveness of God. Let His love as a consuming fire totally cleanse and purify you from all sin. Make this your prayer as King David did.

Psalm 51: 10-12

Now, as your repentance is real and complete, count on God to keep His Word.

I John 1:9 / II Chronicles 7:14/ Ephesians 1:7

LOVE & BLESSINGS...AHAVA & SHALOM...:)

Why do women cry??

2006-07-21T01:25:00.000-07:00

A little boy asked his mother, "Why are you crying?" "Because I'm a woman," she told him.

"I don't understand," he said. His Mom just hugged him and said, "And you never will."

Later the little boy asked his father, "Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?"

"All women cry for no reason," was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally he asked God. He said, "God, why do women cry so easily?"

God said:

" When I made the woman she had to be special. I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.

I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.

I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.

I gave her strength to carry her husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.

And finally, I gave her a tear to shed. This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed."

"You see my son," said God, "the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides."

Please send this to all the beautiful women you know today. If you do, something good will happen - You will boost another woman's self-esteem!

L.o.v.e

2006-07-18T20:37:00.000-07:00

Love Hurts...

It hurts, it pains...
It hurts, it pains,
But in the end,
You can't complain,
So why fight?
When it has u so tight,
To the point of flight,
Once you find it,
It covers you,
Like a blanket of the night,
Comforting and warm,
It will cover all,
And you will be happy too,
So why fight?
The blanket of the night?
Love hurts, it pains,
But in the end you can't complain.

There will always be someone,
Someone to come, and help,
Help you realize, it's not the end,
That it all depends,
On what you do next,
So stand up to the test,
And keep on going

Love hurts, it pains,
But in the end,
You can't complain,
You may be hurt,
What those have done
You can mend,

"Damaged but not broken....Damaged can be healed."

Mall rat and it's a beautiful day...

2006-06-26T23:08:00.000-07:00

I had an awesome day today, I just spoke to my mom which always leaves me feeling extremely elated and excited...then spent my afternoon at the mall, shopping again with Mr. Mulefu which was fun, Teddy Geiger was at the mall actually but the line of lil screaming teenage girls was too much so we just leaned over the railing upstairs and got a pretty good look at him, my friend ofcourse being as country as he is leaned back and asked me to zoom in so that he could have a picture with a celebrity, haha, kiddin...we then later went out for dinner courtesy of another friend which was really nice...I had this scrumptious, really filling meal, a chicken wrap with ceaser salad to be exact and it was yummy, food always seems to taste so different at fancy restaurants...anyway, it's been such a blast hanging out with all these Ugandans, it's totally lifted my spirits...I'd been so homesick the past lil while but I honestly now feel a tad renewed, at least culturally for sure...we talked about the weirdest of things, too, from omuramba, kasese, lira-lira, all these being local undistilled brews from Uganda to Bells, Uganda Waragi, Pilsner, Chairmans and Tuskers, beers and spirits from Uganda again, we could so pass as "drunkos" I know but no, it was all in the name of reminiscing...we were also laughing at the first time we all came abroad, which reminds me of Savage's "Coming to America" posts, hilarious but oh so true...right from the plane ride to escalators, ATM's and all those cool things we didn't know 'bout back in the motherland then...anyway, I'm so tired after such a long day, been visiting the citay too much, lol...I need me some fresh country air tomorrow and this heat is becoming unbearable, I'ma need one of those portable fans real soon, peace & love y'all...

A lil inspiration...

Comfort!!
God is my guide, my comfort, and my strength.
A wise woman once offered this comfort: Imagine your life as a staircase--each step is a part of your journey. Some steps are smooth and unobstructed. Some steps have cracks or loose stones. Now picture a strong and secure handrail alongside each step of the staircase; that handrail represents the strength and security we have in God.
Along our journey through life, God is with us. We meet each day with assurance because God is ever present as our guide, our comfort, and our strength in every situation. We are supported by God's assuring presence throughout our journey in life. God never fails us. No matter what the circumstance may be, God is within us--guiding, comforting, and strengthening us. God is surrounding us--uplifting and steadying us.

"On the day I called, you answered me, you increased my strength of soul."
--Psalm 138:3

The heat and Inner Peace...

2006-06-25T22:02:00.000-07:00

Today was HOTTTT, I'm sure we hit a record high, for a moment there I thought I'd have a heat stroke, I was even forced to put on sunscreen which I usually refuse to put on in defense that I am black and we don't use that stuff in Africa, lol...anyway, so my whole day was pretty much spent in and by the pool, Ninsy don't laugh, I can touch the bottom so I don't have to technically swim, I was floating on a ka mat, lol...anyway, today was very uneventful to start, oh I was actually thinking of how I need to stop procrastinating, I still have to show that Invisible Children slideshow at my church and some other churches but have been putting it off which is terrible...now that I've written it here again though I'm going to be forced to do it sooner than later...it's pretty sad how easily desensitised we can become to situations after awhile, I was so passionate about this project that I couldn't sleep but then as usual my own life got a little busy and psst, it got forgotten...I'm the same person who was adamantly saying we cannot forget our brothers and sisters in the north and yet I'm here slacking off, I'm so ashamed but I promise to get back on track, I don't know why I'm proclaiming this on here but I hope this confession pushes me to do what I gotta do...

In the spirit of confessing, I had a really emotional chat with someone today and I was a lil pertubed by some of the things that we were talking about so I had no peace all afternoon until I read my daily devotional which really gave me some much needed strength to keep on keeping on!! It wasn't the conversation per se that made me feel so lost but it sparked off a chain reaction that kinda got to me...thankfully, my ka sweet sister Ninsy was there for me to provide the much needed ear to listen to all I had to say so thanks again kawalz, ur so very dear to me, love ya!! K, thought I'd share the devotional, peace & love y'all!!

Inner Peace...
Peace fills my soul as I center myself in the love of God.
The peace that comes from knowing the love of God is not passive. It is a powerful force for good.
We center ourselves in the love of God, the peace of God. We can bring peace where there seems to be discord in our world--as Jesus did when He spoke the words, "Peace! Be still!" to a stormy sea.
Peace radiates forth from within us, from our very souls as we hold to the truth that God is always with us and we are enfolded in God's love.
Let every breath we breathe and every word we speak express God's peace. As peace flourishes in our hearts and minds, all whom we touch will feel the power of this gift from God through us.

"How precious is your steadfast love, O God! All people may take refuge in the shadow of your wings."
--Psalm 36:7

Living it up with some mulefu zonto...lol...

2006-06-23T00:17:00.001-07:00

So I came down to the "citay" yesterday to visit with some cousins and friends of mine, yep, country galo is in the big Vancity, the Couve, lol...I live in a little remote town on the outskirts of the city so being this close to all the lights, traffic and action, not forgetting the sickening smog is insane but I'm not complaining really coz it's such a nice break from my usual borin routine...nyway, so I took the 3 or so buses and skytrain down yesterday and went directly to the mall to meet up with these guys...I hadn't seen two of these people in a really long time so I was ecstatic to see them. It was really great and it's funny the connection you can have with certain people where no matter how long it's been since you last saw each other, it's always easy to start where you left off kinda thing and that's exactly how it was with these two...so, we walked around the mall, did some shopping...my girlfriend and I did some catching up immediately, it's a girl thing, lol, we went right into it all which was nice...then we all headed home and continued with the bonding and catching up which was awesome...we later went out to this club which was okay, not classy, not too dingy and the music was alright...being a wednesday night, all that was playing was reggae which I had no problem with and the dj did do a good job of keeping us on our feet...well, it's kinda hard to go wrong with such good company nyway so it was a blast...oh and we met up with this other dude that I kinda knew but not well and he's just crazy, like downright mad but in a good way...well, I guess that description pretty much sums up the whole crew, lol...it was a night full of laughter and the greatest part was being around all these people from home at one go, laughing at each other, okay mostly at me, they kept dissing me coz I live in the country and I guess I was just an easy target, the nerve of them, lol but it was all good fun...we were speaking in my mother tongue, to, just too much fun...we ended up coming home, talking till the wee hours of the morning ofcourse and yet we had to be up in an hour or two, crazy people...today, we then met up with my friend's brother and then hit the mall again, walked around downtown, I hurt my foot on the bus which wasn't fun, limping around all day at the mall...then we met up with Mr. Mulefu again who played "tapo" stunts at work today of going in to say hi and bye, like dude, how unserious, lol...also had a quick chat with my darlingi Nakamatte whom I badly wished was here, aww, don't have nugu sweetie, u were seriously here with us in spirit coz no 2 seconds passed without ur 'boyfriend that never was', lol talking about u...:) U know we really missed that extra topping and icing of locality, lol...we also missed this international hip-hop concert tonite so we're probably going to stay up a little more, talk and then sleep...well, that's my exciting visit to the citay...I wish I had some photos to share but don't..peace & love!! Blessings!

P:S Read ur blog Pea and think ur headed home soon, have a safe trip my dear, enyyyyoo, take curr & God Bless u!!!

Happy Father's Day, to my daddy and to all fathers!!!

2006-06-18T10:50:00.000-07:00

A Father and a Dad Are Not the Same.

A father and a dad are not the same,
One can be a dad and not a father,
Or one can be a father and not bother,
To earn through love the more endearing name.
Some find fatherhood a bit too tame,
Leaving all the details to the mother,
Or dumping the sweet burden on another,
with just a passing twinge of shame.
You have been our dad so many years,
That you've become the landscape that is home,
The mountain that we look to from afar.
No matter where we are, we're not alone,
For you remain within to still our fears
And be the word that tells us who we are.

~Dimitri Shostakovich~

Thank you for being more than just a dad but a father that's very dear!
You've been everything to me: a father,Teacher, playmate, model, conscience, friend.
Sometimes I know I haven't been the child I should,
Far from it, and I really can't say why.
But I guess in the real world sometimes things go awry.
I want you to know though that underneath all those actions
Is only love, gratitude, respect, and admiration.
Sometimes I don't know what I'm thinking,
But I thank God you're in for the duration.
I'm sorry for the things I sometimes do,
But please believe I truly cherish Mom and you.
The things you taught me I will always know.
How could I not? The roots have sunk so deep.
All lessons of the heart that I will keep no matter who I am or where I go.
Kids learn from what their parents are, and so you've been my guidance in life,
The thoughts I reap, only in your arms do I quiet sleep,
Under my words your voice sings soft and slow.
From you I learned the rules of right and wrong,
Against which I at times did rebel,
Though with regret I carry with me still.
How lucky I am to have been loved so well,
Even as I pushed against your will,
Relying on a father fair and strong.
Thank you daddy for always being there...
I love you, I love you, I love you...

~Re-mixed poem~

Pondering on life...

2006-06-17T23:51:00.000-07:00

Why do we always have to remember God only when we need Him the most? Why do bad things have to happen first before we can truly appreciate the good? Why is it so easy to forget about God when everything is going well and then always run to Him first when it's not? Why is there always this empty feeling in my life when I don't pray or haven't been to church in awhile? Why do I sometimes feel like I'm living this monotonous dream? Incomplete, guilt-ridden, unhappy...When will we fully learn it in our hearts, minds and souls that God is KING and He reigns, and that truly every knee shall bow and every tongue confess that He is King of Kings and Lord of Lords...I pray that that day be soon, I need deliverance, we all need deliverance...God Bless! Shalom!

I'm back, yay, lol...

2006-06-12T18:54:00.000-07:00

So I've been away on "holiday", in reality I was just house-sitting for a friend but boy did it ever feel like one, having the house all to myself was great, I absolutely loved it, the only downside though was not having internet access which really sucked but turned out to be a blessing in disguise, my Internet addict self really needed to just chill and have a break from it all...this looks like it's going to be another one of those no full-stop postings, country boyi u got me hooked onto that "writing style" man, lol...and thank u Ms. Ninsy for the update in my absentia, thank God it wasn't one of the "blazameni, sista galo" stunts coz that wudda been real madness, lol...ur a doll!!!

Anyway, so I really enjoyed the time by myself, lots to meditate on, pray, dream about, the silence at times got a tad loud, if you know what I'm sayin but I slowly learned to deal with it, curb my boredom, in fact I'm proud to announce my newly accquired skills- professional solitaire, hearts and freecell player, webcam expert photographer, Ninsy gurl u my witness, u saw the pure "malo" proof of that eh, haha...I'd have indulged y'all but I'm shy, sorry...lol, it was all a blast nyway but damn, I missed the internet, it was crazy, I almost went mad, which reminds me, you'll never believe how desperate I was to find an internet connection...so I tried to see If I could "thug" one from the neighbours by searching for the right spots around the house, first, the bathroom upstairs coz I thought maybe the closer I was to the neighbours, the higher the chance of getting a connection but that didn't work, then the laundry room downstairs which was right next to the neighbour on the other side but wapi, then the garage but all to no avail so I very "brilliantly" decided to go outside in the backyard, this time more hopeful that I'd at least find a random connection somewhere in the area...I was quite the sight I tell you and then as if it couldn't get any worse, it begun to drizzle but I was really desperate to see whether it wud work or not, so there I was sitting on the deck, no shoes, my computer plugged in, the woods right behind me so lots of trees, like really fresh bait for lightning, which by the way I'm deathly afraid of and yet had a storm suddenly come by, I was sure game, wonder what I was thinking, well apparently I wasn't but anyway, guess that's the extent I was willing to go for the sake of a damn connection, please belive me when I tell you the internet is a deadly "drug", lol, crazy addiction man...I even dreamt about google the other nite, yup, GOOGLE, I'm not kiddin, I was like doing all these people searches and it brought up all this detailed information about em, like everything, from the toothpaste they used to the colour of the nail polish they were wearing, it was hilarious and yet at the same time very scary coz it showed all this detail and some of it was quite extreme, creepy, pretty sure that might be a reality one day though with the way technology is going, if it already isn't but that's a story for another day...

Anyway, it's great to have the internet back, I did a marathon read thru all the usual blogs tryna catch up and it felt good to be back, I'd really missed y'all...JKB, I hope the above was a valid excuse for my absence and hope ur good, :) Ninsy, I just read ur blog, happy anniversary to us eh, you're a ka special one you, and that FOS determination is out of this world. Baura, I hope ur doing fine, long time, hope u got my belated birthday message, okay, this suddenly turned into a shout out message, too much excitement, wonder how many words I've written this time without a full stop, country boyi, I'll be waiting, too lazy to count, lol, peace & love y'all!!

God Bless!

"YES - BUT . . . !"

2006-05-30T16:27:00.000-07:00

Since Cindy is taking her sweet time to post something on here, I took it upon myself as a 'team manager' to post something for us all. lol. And next time I won't be as subtle, I might unleash the bulaza meni stunts on here lol.
This is a short devotional by Oswald Chambers, Compiled by his wife into daily devotional format, today's one really spoke to me. Pea I hope you get to read this. God is good!

"Lord, I will follow Thee; but . . ." Luke 9:61

Supposing God tells you to do something which is an enormous test to your common sense, what are you going to do? Hang back? If you get into the habit of doing a thing in the physical domain, you will do it every time until you break the habit determinedly; and the same is true spiritually. Again and again you will get up to what Jesus Christ wants, and every time you will turn back when it comes to the point, until you abandon resolutely. "Yes, but - supposing I do obey God in this matter, what about . . . ?" "Yes, I will obey God if He will let me use my common sense, but don't ask me to take a step in the dark." Jesus Christ demands of the man who trusts Him the same reckless sporting spirit that the natural man exhibits. If a man is going to do anything worth while, there are times when he has to risk everything on his leap, and in the spiritual domain Jesus Christ demands that you risk everything you hold by common sense and leap into what He says, and immediately you do, you find that what He says fits on as solidly as common sense. At the bar of common sense Jesus Christ's statements may seem mad; but bring them to the bar of faith, and you begin to find with awestruck spirit that they are the words of God. Trust entirely in God, and when He brings you to the venture, see that you take it. We act like pagans in a crisis, only one out of a crowd is daring enough to bank his faith in the character of God.

King Kong and a dull weekend...

2006-05-20T23:02:00.000-07:00

I finally watched King Kong, that was my saturday nite "proggie", lol and yet I had originally planned to meet up with some friends but I've really "hahad" my anti-social behaviour...I'm either turning into a hermit or have a serious case of couch potato syndrome, this is so totally uncool, I find myself making excuses not to leave the house especially later in the day, I'm just utterly at peace being at home, watching a movie or anything but going out...like seriously my idea of fun these days when not chilling at home is going to the beach, taking long walks, bike rides (this new going-to-force-myself-to-be habit, lol started today) and basically just about anything laid back is game...geez I sound like I could be retired, haha...and as normal as this might sound to some people, it's really strange to me because before fun meant going to the mall, clubbing until six in the morning, drinking, chilling at loud and happening places, okay you get the point so this new lifestyle which is not so new actually is kinda scary but nice, I absolutely love it!

K, back to King Kong, first of all Peter Jackson is now officially on my big achiever's list because holding my attention that long, daaamnnn, he's good coz my attention is usually only perharps a tad longer than a goldfish's so it's a task that very, very few manage to achieve, lol...but even for ordinary standards this movie is long, 187 mintues, like how the heck did people manage to sit through that and in those uncomfy theatre chairs...guess for raking in approx. $200, 000, 000 at the box office though, it didn't do bad and was worth it...even after having all these biases on it's length and the excessive media hype, it did move me and was really captivating so I give it a complete thumbs up, the graphics and sound effects were really cool, too!

Other than that, nothing much is going on, dull weekend, not much hype which is really the norm ofcourse although I hope something a lil more interesting comes along, being a long weekend, I'll keep you posted, yah, don't bank on that, I think I have like 2 old entries I need to update or post a part 2 but haven't gotten round to...well, peace & love y'all!! God Bless!

I asked God...Beautiful!!!!

2006-05-17T11:32:00.000-07:00

I asked God why I wasn't rich. He showed me a man with the wealth of a thousand kings, who was lonely, and had no one to share it with.
I asked God why I wasn't beautiful. He showed me a woman more beautiful than any other, who was ugly because of her vanity.
I asked God why He'd allowed me to become old. He showed me a boy of 16, who lay dead at the scene of a car accident.
I asked God why I didn't have a bigger house. He showed me a family of six, who had just been evicted from their tiny shack, and were forced, to live on the street.
I asked God why I had to work. He showed me a man, who couldn't find a decent job, because he'd never learned to read.
I asked God why I wasn't more popular. He showed me a socialite with a thousand friends, who all left the moment the money and parties were no longer there.
I asked God why I wasn't smarter. He showed me a natural born genius, serving life in prison for making ill use of his knowledge.
I asked God why He put up with a thankless sinner like me. He showed me His Bible. He showed me His Son, who took my place at the judgment. I knew then how much He loved me.

What's eating at you today? Are your problems weighing heavy on your heart? Know, then, that you are loved. Have a WONDERFUL day! Then brighten someone else's day, in any way you care to. Remember, a candle loses nothing by lighting another candle. Just reach out and touch someone's life and brighten up his or her day.

I've Been Through The Storm, But Look At Me I'm Still Standing, I'm Still Here.........If it doesn't kill you... it will make you stronger.

Good Riddance...(Time of Your Life)

2006-05-16T20:49:00.000-07:00

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth, it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life.
It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life...

~Green Day~

Invisible Children...THE DOCUMENTARY...

2006-05-16T10:29:00.000-07:00

So I finally found a link where you can watch the whole movie...yay!! Why it had never hit me to 'google' I wonder, google so totally rocks!!

CLICK HERE TO WATCH!!!!

A mother's love determines how...

2006-05-12T11:40:00.000-07:00

A mother's love determines how
We love ourselves and others.
There is no sky we'll ever see
Not lit by that first love.

Stripped of love, the universe
Would drive us mad with pain;
But we are born into a world
That greets our cries with joy.

How much I owe you for the kiss
That told me who I was!
The greatest gift--a love of life--
Lay laughing in your eyes.

Because of you my world still has
The soft grace of your smile;
And every wind of fortune bears
The scent of your caress.

--Nicholas Gordon--

Of crushes & relationships, part 1...

2006-05-11T18:38:00.000-07:00

Hey blogger world, the way I always feel like I have this reader audience eh, haha, anywho, I'm just watching the end bit of Criminal Minds and it's this adrenaline pumping, blood rushing, heart racing, palm sweating episode...k, I just about sound like one of those English to Luganda translators narrating a movie, lol but it's tight, this psychopath is trying to outplay the FBI, like dude but it looks like he really got game and some really crazy stuff at that...I can't even type, one second, k now I'm really hooked, it's definitely goin to be another fave for those borin Wednesday nites...

Anyway, today was one of those blah-ish days and I'm in one of those moods, reminiscing about the past, my relationships to be specific...oohhhh, I can imagine some people's eyes widening at this, the sheer anticipation for some possibly juicy sagas, y'all know who u are, lol...anywho, I never for once though I'd be brave enough to venture into writing on such a personal topic being the private person that I think I am but I guess never say never...I have a friend doing a magazine and this month's edition is mainly about relationships so that's what probably got me started and he was being silly, too like saying that he doesn't know what exactly to write about since he thought relationships just meant ships that were related, lol...like apparently the Titanic and the Queen Mary had it goin on, like what the? Well, he's obviously been taking a whole lotta happy juice lately or some, nah, but it's quite interesting looking back on stuff, taking that whole trip down memory lane is always one hell of a ride...the good times, the not so good and all the memories that make the ride worthwhile! Yup, and that's it folks, lol, I can so picture y'all seething with anger, like that was it? Well, you didn't expect me to dish out on my personal life like that on herre now...geez, check out People magazine or some if u lookin for that kinda stuff, haha...okay, I kid, if you really don't mind taking a lil trip down memory lane, then buckle up and enjoy the ride, lol, k maybe I might be the one taking some of that happy juice...

Nyhow, where do I begin? Hmmmmm, I think I'll start right from my first 'real' relationship which was when I was about 15, okay atleast it was the first guy I liked that I actually had a real conversation with and not run away at the sight of...(don't you just cringe when you remember your first crush and all that silly stuff you did, lol...) I was extremely shy, like I would literally run away from guys who approached me so needless to say my first couple of crushes, more like all of em were fruitless, even though there was this one that had been a classmate in primary school then after meeting again a couple years later, kinda flirted with and wrote each other letters, this of course being the only way to communicate since we attended different schools and for me that was a huge step like we might have as well been dating coz on top of being really shy I'm terrible at letter writing, like I can count the number of letters I've hand-written and posted on one hand, almost...but since I liked this guy, it became a hobby so we'd write each other, song dedications and all, lol...just writing this is cracking me up...I remember clearly, Boys II Men, R. Kelly, u know those romantic songs of back in the day, stuff was off the hook...anyway, at the time having a real relationship was like way down on my priority list so somehow it just ended like that even though funily enough, we ended up getting in touch again, years later and actually dated for awhile and then broke up and sadly it was one of those endings where you don't realize what you have until you've lost it but I moved on and the rest is history...looking back I actually think of all the people I've dated, my history with this person has definitely been the longest, you know those people that keep popping back into your life, so I guess he'll always have a special place in my heart...awww, y'all better be feeling some emotion about now coz I'm getting all teary eyed, lol...

Nyway, back to the first relationship already, lol, major side-tracking or what but this one was hilarious, we were in the same class and were really good friends, he was like the class clown so I really found it hard to take him seriously which ironically is what I think kinda helped me get over my shyness and somehow give the whole thing a try...so, we started 'going out', he played basketball so he gave me his jersey to wear, which was a big deal back then, lol, it's funny what was considered really dating, eh, then we used to meet up before prep, after dinner and talk in class, and my school had entertainment every Saturday night which was usually a movie so this made for our weekly 'dates', it was actually quite romantic when I look back at it, dinner and a movie, lol...yah, so we sat together, held hands and that's all we did really, okay and maybe a goodnite peck after the movie...then we called each other up over the holidays and rarely ever met up coz those days I was pretty much grounded at all times, not because I was bad or anything either, just the perils of having an old school, conservative, tough lovin daddy which might have not been such a bad thing I guess, looking back on it now, I never thought I'd ever say that, ohh, it's 3am, damn, somebody's passed her insomnia on to me, I'll have to continue this next time...I hope y'all aren't nodding off already, haha, hey, I ain't no Spike Lee or some cool movie producer nor acclaimed writer for that matter so deal with it, this is my story, hahaha, k, peace & love y'all and keep posted for part 2...Blessings!!!

Daily Word & Amnesty Canada Update...

2006-05-05T09:29:00.000-07:00

Celebrate...

With joy and thanksgiving, I celebrate life. I need only observe my surroundings to see the celebration of new life that is going on: trees are shaking off the last vestiges of winter as leaves fill their branches; flowers are blooming in a God-created canvas of color and beauty; and animals everywhere are awakening fully from their winter rest. I, too, celebrate life as I release past worry or doubt and welcome new opportunities. If there is something I have been doing that is not working for me, I release it. With a fresh outlook, I choose a new approach that opens up a world of possibilities for greater success. God has blessed me with a life of beauty and abundance, a life of wonder and blessings. With joy and thanksgiving, I celebrate life. "God added his testimony by signs and wonders and various miracles, and by gifts of the Holy Spirit, distributed according to his will." Hebrews 2:4

So I'm lazy to post a real entry today but the site is acting up, too...it's painfully slooooow...uuughhh...here's the Amnesty update...

UN Human Rights Council: Making human rights a reality for all...

On May 9th the U.N. General Assembly will elect the members of the new UN Human Rights Council. Canada, which is standing for election, has a critical role to play in ensuring that the Council's mandate of protecting all human rights for everyone is not a hollow promise. Send an email to Canada's Minister of Foreign Affairs, the Honorable Peter MacKay, and urge him to ensure Canada demonstrates clear leadership in the respect and fulfillment of human rights norms and standards. Take action before May 9th! (Click to send e-mail)

Amnesty International has launched a new web site providing easy-to-access, concise information about the current human rights situation and records of individual states who are candidates for the Human Rights Council. View the site...

Project Gulu Slideshow (TRIAL version)

2006-05-01T23:22:00.000-07:00

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Hey, hey, hey, it's wannabe whiz C in the house, lol...it's just the aftermath of exam stress, honest, ha...nyhow, this is a trial version, I wanted to see how the photo story works and getting the video on here as well...If u do happen to watch, I'd appreciate feed back pliz coz never done either one before...testing, testing, 1,2,3...lol...have a blessed one!

INVISIBLE CHILDREN...

2006-04-27T23:31:00.000-07:00

This morning I watched the heart-wrenching Oprah show on the war in Northern Uganda and the genocide in Sudan and as always it left me at a loss for words. The atrocities being committed are unfathomable, it really is mind boggling to see that all this can happen and once again the rest of the world remains oblivious to it all. It's sad enough, too that the rest of the world may not be aware or some maybe have chosen to turn a deaf ear but what's even more painful to me at least as a Ugandan citizen is how we as a nation have failed to do more...I was reading about the Gulu walk and how it was started by these two young Canadian boys, then the Invisible Children, a film turned into an NGO and how these young American boys decided they had to at least try to do something and I was really challenged because it seems to me that a lot of us either take the situation lightly or are just trying not to see things as they really are...I've known about this war since it started but I guess it's always seemed distant which is very sad and I have prayed about it, I do feel the pain of these little kids especially but I haven't really tried to do anything more...If anyone was to visit Kampala today or other parts of Uganda, they would definitely think this war is just a bluff because no effects of this war are seen anywhere else in Uganda and I guess this has probably been the cause of so much neglect and failure to support our own people.

As I was watching the night walkers, these beautiful children with no place to go, having to run and hide in cages, walking miles and miles every night, this one girl, her face disfigured by a bomb, the rapes, the horror stories, this one little boy, formerly a child soldier who would rather die now than live because of what he's been through, he has given up hope! I'm so emotional right now, pardon me if I'm incoherent but this war has gone on for far too long...I remember when Esteri was involved in the Invisible Children plea awhile back and the way I was determined to do something and here I am, months later and nothing has changed...I'm so ashamed! But I am going to try, I promise to do as much as I can from now on, even if it means just making more people aware of this situation and finding more ways to help. These children don't deserve to live like this, nobody does!! The genocide in Sudan, I'm at a loss for words again but we all really need to try and do something however small to change this...please do check out the website, Invisible Children and there's also a global night commute on April 29th in various states and provinces across North America, do check that out, too...you don't have to pay or anything, just being there makes a difference! My prayer is that these children and people be forgotten no more, please try and make a difference in their lives!! If you would like to sign up for the Global Night Commute, please sign up here, Global Nite Commute thank you & God richly bless!!

Links for more information on the ongoing wars in Sudan and Northern Uganda;

Global Security Organization, Save Darfur Coalition, Genocide Intervention, Uganda Rising, The International Rescue Community

Other organizations to check out are UNICEF, World Vision, Women for Women International, CARE, etc, and you could also use Google to find more information. Peace & Love!!!

What a blessed day!!!!!

2006-04-26T23:00:00.000-07:00

I know I promised to finish my trail of thought on that "lesson to all of us" last blog, but I got so side-tracked I don't even quite remember what prompted that title let alone the blog so I'm sorry, I hope I can atleast blame these dreadful exams, two done though and two more to go but anyway, should I promise again, lol but if and when that thought does hit me again, y'all will definately be the first to know...:) And E ofcourse there was nothin really to learn from my ranting and raving, was there? Lol, but u know who takes the blame, right? "Yep" the shrink, lol...I should have written this in the comments section as it really was a reply to JKB and E but oh well...

I had such a wonderful day today, I'm still in awe of the little ways God chooses to reveal Himself to us, like this morning, on top of all the stress of studying for exams and the sleep deprivation which can be quite serious in my case, lol...I had the hustle of figuring out how exactly to get to this place where I was writing my exams but as luck had it or rather as God planned it, I got a ride to the ferry, which saved me two really long bus rides. So I get to the ferry terminal and before I could be thankful for the ride, I see that "the ferry" is actually this little rickety, rackety vessel that seriously shouldn't be allowed on the water, it was falling apart and the passenger booth was so small, it could probably sit only six or seven people at most...nywho, so I get on the ferry and I'm such a hydrophobe by the way, so you bet being on a little "boat" didn't help and top that with being a tad claustrophobic, I was really in a bad place...I was super nervous and all by myself, too which only made matters worse so it was starting to look like a boatride to "you know where" but anyway, in the midst of it all, as I was listening to "Redeemer" by Nicole C Mullen and praying, I looked through this tiny hole that was supposed to be the window and saw the sun and the way its glorious rays glistened on the water and I just smiled because it was the perfect picture for the song and it was also some sort of physical reminder that God is always there, even in a situation this small...

So I relaxed a little, still uncomfortable but happily waiting to embark on the "big" 10 minute journey, lol and then just like an immediate answer to my prayer, in walked my pastor, I literally jumped for joy, I'm not kidding, I was so happy to see him, I run and hugged him real tight, he must have been a little concerned, lol but the way I was praying for atleast somebody to join me in the passenger booth and then it's not just somebody but my pastor, I was too flabbergasted...well, once again Jesus took the wheel and made my day really beautiful, it might sound silly, my little phobias and all but it totally meant a lot to me and it helped change my attitude the rest of the day...I was more optimistic, thankful for everything, the rain, the hustle, the tiny booth, even the six draining hours of exams because hey, I am alive and still able to experience all this, feel the joy in my heart, my Redeemer's presence, His love and that is the best feeling in the world!

Oh and by the way, I ended up getting a ride from the ferry with my pastor which saved me yet another bus ride and I even got a ride on my way back, just thought u'd like to know that, lol but basically my day was just the best as soon as I let go of my fears and let in my God!! Peace & Love y'all!

Ranting & Raving...

2006-04-21T15:49:00.000-07:00

Judge one not by his charms but by his qualities!!!!

Thank you Jesus for so often speaking to me, I have to try and remind myself more often how many prayers of mine you've answered, I think I'll take a leaf from one of my heroes Afande O and literally write that list coz you are such an awesome God...I love u Jesus...I'm rushing out to do my hair but will finish writing this trail of thought when I get back, if I can remember it, lol...this is an incentive by the way to get me to finish writin this post later, I have like a hundred unfinished blog entries in draft form so...some people are weird, huh...hahaha...

Luv & God Bless y'all for now...:)

K, part 2...

So, I thought I'd be continuing my entry today but things change, I'm no longer feeling hyped enough to write about what I had wanted to earlier, the devil still continues to remind me of his presence, which is good in a way coz it keeps me on my toes, spirtually...there's all this drama going on and all, I can't really explain but what I can do is pray and pray I have and pray I will....

One thing I've learnt for sure though is our God is an awesome God, sometimes He'll bring us to and through all sorts of trials & tribulations only to make us stronger, so in the end we do win...I'm so thankful, too for the peace He has given me, I'm totally comforted by the fact that He has always and is always goin to be there, no matter what, for me, for all of us, through good and bad and there's no doubt about that...I'm uncertain about a number of things, real shaky sometimes, have my ups and downs, slip and fall, backslide, worry and all sorts of things but the only thing I'm certain of 100%, is God's love for me and that somehow makes everything else seem manageable...

I send out an honest heartfelt prayer to all the people involved in this madness, please God open their hearts up to you, use this experience as a means for them to get to know you, for those who haven't or for those who know you, to get to know you better...forgive those who don't mean well, please touch their hearts...we are all sinners and all have fallen short of your glory but in that same spirit, we all have hope in you father and forgiveness through you and we are free, if we choose...

For those being fought, buckle up, strengthen your armour, it's in situations like this when you really have to be a true warrior...when a soldier is hurt at war, they don't run back and hide and forget all the training they ever received, instead they keep on fighting, fight to get well, fight more strategically, and return to the battlefield even stronger than before...likewise, being christian soliders with the strongest armour of all, God's armour, nothing should be able to falter you coz life is hard, there are always going to be problems, I guess some problems are more complicated than others but we have to trust God, He that brought you to it, will definately bring you through it, ur light has to shine thru even in the toughest of times, there's no giving up...

And I know there's been a lot of hurtful things said, but we can't let it get to us, we instead have to be stronger and just give it all up to God...are we going to give up our lives and hide or stay miserable or whatever because of what someone else is saying or threatening to do, I am not saying those threats are not real by the way or undermining them, I do take them serious and I know they could be as real as it gets but nobody is promised tomorrow, not even today, it's not a sure deal that anyone is going to make it to the next second, alive and well, nobody knows that...you could go for a walk tomorrow and get hit by a drunk driver, heck even the garbage truck could back up into u when ur takin out ur trash and that could kill u...I've heard of really weird stories, people have fallen down stairs, adults, too and died so I'm sorry If I'm being too positive but I'm not going to let anyone ruin my life, I'm going to stay happy and thankful to God for each new day, each breath that I take...this whole situation has actually given me a whole new appreciation of life and has strengthened my faith even more, a whole lot of lessons to learn I think!!

So, I am moving on with my life regardless of the threats and messages I get or hear or anything, I know my God is good and If I've believed that for the last 21 years, nothing is going to stop me from continuing to believe that, some people just find joy in terrorising people and creating all this drama but it's only if you let it get to you, that it will...k,I really pity whoever has read this far, lol but I needed to vent, it's therapeutic, so my ka "personal shrink" once told me...I did have to get this out and hey, it is my space...I love u all & may God richly Bless!!

P:S Okay this is hilarious, since when did googled information = highly classified and top secret statistical information, puhlease, then Wikipedia should be published and replace the Oxford dictionary...God save us!!! Am out! This is a closed chapter!!

Let Go, Let God...

2006-04-19T23:56:00.000-07:00

I let go and know that God is in charge. If I begin to view something in my life as a problem or a burden, it is time for me to let go and let God. In prayer, I surrender control over the situation. Then I get out of the way and let God do God's part.

I surrender any nagging thoughts and worries that are on my mind, and I trust God. I have no need to control everything, plan every detail, or worry about every possibility. My commitment is to trust God. So I become still and quietly but trustingly proclaim, "I let go and let God."

Trusting in God relieves me. I feel as if a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I let go of my own need to force a particular outcome; rather, I trust that God will bring about the right outcome. I let go and know that God, as always, is in charge.

"Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you." - Psalm 55:22

Of bad love, men & the only perfect man!!

2006-04-14T23:50:00.000-07:00

I got the idea to write about this after reading the breakup chronicles which I heard about on the Tyra show and also a couple of girlfriends callin me up all week with similar problems about love and relationships so as soon as I read the website, it definately clarified my feelings about bad love...

Abusive love, neglectful love, unrequited love, the list is endless...the kind of love that makes you chase after it, the kind that makes you think you're not quite good enough for it, that makes you think that maybe if you keep at it, you just might get it, the kind that makes you revert back to a more insecure you, or that's tricked you into thinking that's how it's gotta be...a love where you're biased about who you really are, your self esteem, your body image, one that makes you feel the need to be or look a certain way in order for it to work, one where your man makes you think or actually maybe even tells you that you have to look a certain way, be a certain weight just to be with him, like really? If your man isn't ready to love you for who you really are regardless of your weight, unless it's a health issue maybe, is he really worth it? Or if you feel the need to chase after love, is it worth it? Some may argue that it is but in most cases, I think not!

Or the love that's based on what you have and not who you are, those male version "gold diggers", and Kanye has now made that term seem like it refers to only women, puhlease when there's all these men who'll only date you for your money, or the type of car you drive or the fame or social position that you hold especially today when ladies aren't doing too bad for themselves, women's emancipation and all, which is great but kinda tends to attract those oh so good for nothing men who are literally looking for a free lunch and are so not worth it...I could go on forever about the different types of bad love, men and situations but all in all, when you think or have to lose weight or drive a posh car or make more money or gain fame or compromise who you are, etc, before you're deserving of love then that's love gone terribly wrong- bad love!!

Like one of the editor's on the website pondered how and when did we all get the notion that love is hard, difficult, painful, combative?? Is it something we've seen in our past growing up? Or is it learned behavior that we've picked up from the "real world"?? Well, regardless of its origins we need to put a stop to it, we all need to break up with that voice inside of us that tells us we're not worthy of love, of just being who we are without trying to be someone else, that voice that makes us think if someone is just not that into us, then it's somehow our fault, that makes us think we have to change who we are to please the other person, to be in love, or that we have to compromise our beliefs, our entire being all in the name of "love", the voice that tells us love is pain or pain is love and that's okay, that voice has really gotta go...relationships do take work and are sometimes hard, difficult and painful but LOVE? No, Love doesn't have to be like that!!!

Speaking of bad love and men, on Good friday ironically, a day that sums up the essence of pure real good love at it's best, a day when we remember how a man like no other selflessly lay down His life for us, one whose love so unconditional gave His life to save us...I've been confused actually about this whole Easter thing and whether to celebrate it or not after reading articles on how all these Religious holiday dates originated from pagan worshippers way back in the day but I guess the issue of the dates and all is really trivial compared to the meaning of the events that took place, like today where regardless of whether the date is wrong or not, it is a time to remember the perfect gift from the perfect man that we ought to be thankful for everyday!! Thank you Jesus for lovingly paying the price for our sins, dying on the cross so that we could live and be free!!! I love you!!

And with that, I wish you all a Happy Easter!!! Peace & Love!!!

A poem about forgiveness...

2006-04-04T12:31:00.000-07:00

Forgiveness is letting go of the pain, and accepting what has happened, because it will not change. Forgiveness is dismissing the blame. Choices were made that caused the hurt; we each could have chosen differently, but we didn't.

Forgiveness is looking at the pain, learning the lessons it has produced, and understanding what we have learned. Forgiveness allows us to move on towards a better understanding of universal love and our true purpose.

Forgiveness is knowing that love is the answer to all questions, and that we all are in some way connected. Forgiveness is starting over with the knowledge that we have gained. I forgive you, and I forgive myself. I hope you can do the same. -Judith Mammay.

I open my heart to God and receive the blessing that forgiveness brings me. Jesus taught His followers the importance of giving and receiving forgiveness with a parable: A master had mercy on a servant and forgave him the debt he owed. This same servant refused to forgive another servant's debt. When the master found out, he had the unforgiving servant's debt restored.

Forgiveness is a natural function of the principle of giving and receiving. As I release the past, I open my heart to God, the forgiving Spirit within me and everyone. My forgiveness of myself is related to my forgiveness of others, because my willingness to forgive others inspires me to also forgive myself. My life is enriched as this cycle of giving and receiving continues to bless me and all my relationships.

"Create in me a clean heart, O God, and put a new and right spirit within me." --Psalm 51:10

Of html & dog paddling...

2006-03-24T23:02:00.000-08:00

...dude, I need me some serious lessons!! I'm really hyped about my new page, yay! Self taught html-ing, lol...I hustled, too but I think I must have a teeny weenie bit of male genes coz I really dislike asking for help or directions, it honestly makes me feel like I'm just being a bug & I could do it myself if I tried hard enough and it kinda affects my ego, too...lol...nyway, atleast if this page looks crappy, there's no one else to blame but moi...:) Oh well, it's my first trial anyway and I'm not a computer scientist or whiz so sue me if it's ugly, I like it, lol...I'm even startin to get all defensive, paranoid!!! Haha!

Anyway, I really had a ball today, way more productive than yesterday ofcourse...I fixed this up (learnt a ton about url's & html's & all sorts of computer terminologies) then studied quite a bit, which is very unusual- so sick of school, like really a 2 year diploma should be enough, sometimes I don't see the point, all these years of school, that may sound ignorant or shallow or whatever but really, I feel like everyday is a learning experience anyway, so what's the point? And what better way to learn than to do it hands-on instead of listening to a boring prof go on and on about stuff u'll probably never even need in the future anyway...school is so totally pointless after a certain number of years, lol...I guess it really isn't but hey, if it makes me feel better...

I went swimming today, too in after what seemed like eons...geez, since last summer I think...anyway, I actually had a good time, wading in the pool, I'm such a terrible swimmer like I pretty much doggy paddle and that's the extent of my skills...I had a good time though even in spite of chickening out on one of the slides which was quite a shame, man, all these lil kids were looking at me like, what the?? Msiu, I just gave them a mean stare and walked back down the million stairs, trying to keep my head up...tsk, tsk, I need to get me some lessons...

I've been goin thru a kind of spiritual low and I've decided it has to do with skipping church last week, not on purpose but I just cudn't make it and boy, does it ever make a difference...church is totally renewing, every time I go, I just get that extra strength to make it through the week, I guess the whole atmosphere is just so spiritually charged that it can't help but rub off on u, if u believe ofcourse!

Can't keep my eyes open any longer, musta been all the dog paddling, love & God Bless y'all!

**A lil inspiration, Daily word**

The peace of God is the source of my serenity. I am strong, calm, and assured. Thank You, God, for the peace that resides at the very core of my being. This reservoir of peace is a source of serenity that blesses my every experience. In a quiet moment of reflection, I let my thoughts be of inner peace. After only a few moments in the silence, I feel strengthened, calmed, and assured. My prayers go out to anyone who may be experiencing stress or tension today. I envision strength and serenity for all as transformations take place in their circumstances. May they be open to Your peace guiding them in every needed way. Your peace, God, upholds me and sustains me. I give thanks for the serenity that fills my soul and overflows into my life.

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not let them be afraid."--John 14:27

Couch potato & a trip down memory lane...

2006-03-23T16:34:00.000-08:00

K, today I thought I'd do a "real" blog about my day and also a couple things I was reminiscing about elementary school, real funny looking back on it now! K, I had an absolutely blah day, you know one of those days that you wake up and know right from the start that it's going to be a really long day...all I've done is pretty much browse websites and chill on the couch watching TV, what a waste of a day, huh...couch potato kweli...I started bright and early, too...lol, right from Oprah @ 9 all the way till Days of Our lives @ around 1 ish, what a couch potato but I'll use my 3-day and going strong sore throat as an excuse not to feel too guilty!!

On a completely different note, I am so home-sick, I can already tell this entry is going to be all over the place, I think I have some sort of undiagnosed form of ADD coz when I'm writing seriously I can never stick to one topic, oh well...nywho, as I was saying, I am so totally home-sick, I dream of home, talk of home, think of home, it's crazy, I really hope I can make a trip therre soon, maybe even for good, hmm, I wonder, guess I'll leave that for another day's blog coz it's a real dilemma...

I can't believe I'm still lying on the couch, I did have breaks off it in between though but today has been bad, I haven't even signed on to messenger to chat which I usually so happily do when I can, like now, lol...I don't even have an ounce of energy and it's not coz I'm feelin crappy either, I just don't feel like it, maybe this non-stop downpour has something to do with it, this place is so dreary, and it's supposed to be spring, guess I have a case of spring blues, sigh again...lol, u can tell I'm totally wallowing in self-pity, hehe but what the heck, if I don't feel sorry for myself, who will? LOL, I hope tomorrow is better though...

K, about that trip down memory lane, today I was thinking and laughing to myself over all the exciting things we used to do back in primary school...from the field trips to school concerts to sport's days...I don't think I thought of it as fun back then coz school was just school but now that I look back on it, it really was a blast...I remember this one time we did a commercial for Energizer batteries, too cool and the trips to the National Theatre for music, dance & drama competitions, watchin plays and all, so much fun...field trips were just the best, the ones that really stood out were at Kampala Parent's, visiting the Coca-cola factory and drinkin pop till we got sick, rallying the bus drivers to speed so we'd be the first to get back to school, oh man, fun stuff...then my crazy Primary 6 year where some boys once brought alcohol to class and the whole class got punished for it...then Kitante with it's humongous ampitheatre, the rocks, geez, I was terrified of that area, the museum, doing cross-country runs, oh man, it's endless, I cud write all nite, it was such a blast though, I miss it...I'll have to do a part 2...my bed is callin now, the couch's gettin old, hehe...

Love & God Bless!

Inspirational Quotes & Verses...

2006-03-22T21:53:00.000-08:00

"What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?" -- Dr. Robert Schuller

"While one hesitates because he feels inferior, the other is busy making mistakes and becoming superior." -- Henry C. Link

Fear is one of the greatest impediments to self-realization.

To let go is to let go. You cannot sell your old car and keep it too.

A missed opportunity is not bad, it simply means that more time on your part will be required while the arranging of the next opportunity is put in motion.

The Future:
I shall walk eager still for what Life holds. Although it seems the hard road will not end? One never knows the beauty round the bend.

The optimism which is necessary in order to make things happen in your favor lies entirely within your grasp. Your whole future depends upon the attitude with which you approach it. Make that attitude the most positive one imaginable. Remember that your future is everything and that you have the power to make it as bright as you wish.

HUMBLE yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up. James 4:10

This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers. 1 John 3:16

Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Joshua 1:8

Show me, O Lord, my life's end and the number of my days; let me know how fleeting is my life. Psalms 39:4

Living daily in Jesus, our first love!!!!

2006-03-08T20:49:00.000-08:00

Salvation is a daily experience, not a once and for all type of thing like most people seem to think it is...It's about dying to oneself every single day and needing to meet with Jesus daily...I picked up pieces of this message from one of Billy Graham's old ones on 100 Huntley Street awhile back and it blessed me immensely....I was greatly challenged to see that even a renowned evangelist like him needs to meet with Jesus daily and constantly renew his faith, I thought of it like wow, he does that and yet I, a stumbling Christian, who truly needs to grow in Jesus much more doesn't...nyway, I think it would be ideal to even meet with Jesus every micro-second of our lives because honestly if u really look at it in terms of an eternity of either being with or without Him, then it makes u think twice about wanting to spend every teeny, weeny micro-second in, with, thru & for Him...

Billy Graham was saying, we can't rest on yesterday's experiences, we have to ask ourselves, "what did God do for me today?" And, what can I do for Him today? We have to submit ourselves to the will of God daily, meet with Him daily in order to grow, in order to strengthen our armour, inorder to remain strong in the battles we face daily! The devil is so not our friend and he will continue to fight to try and make us his...he's not stupid, he knows that we are God's children and hates it...he is cunning and tricky and tries to ensnare and trap us, make us think we're not worthy of being God's children...sometimes we tend to underestimate the power of the devil, or even kinda pretend to ignore his existance but he is there and he's fighting for souls as badly...the good news though ofcourse is that GOD is always there for us, we only need to seek Him and we will find, ask Him and He will answer, knock and the door will be opened unto us....we need to do this on a daily basis, too...seek His Holy Spirit everyday inorder to stand firm and not waver & ofcourse in the first place, accept that He is Lord and that Jesus-our saviour, died on the cross to save us...

My life testimony is quite a loadful so I won't indulge y'all in all the details now but one thing is for sure, I don't want to live a lie anymore, I've been struggling to make it right with God and always failing, always making empty promises, wavering, stumbling & falling but thankfully, He has always been there...His love unconditional, patiently waiting for me to make up my mind and realize that I need to be FREE, free from all bondage of sin, free from my past (even that as recent as yesterday), free from my guilt, free from COMPROMISE, free from all the sin and evil that the devil has so happily wrapped around my life...Jesus, the only way, truth and life...no one comes to the Father but through the son...Jesus died on the cross for my sins, it's like I need to say that over and over in my mind, so that I don't forget it like I have so often done...to remind myself that I need to live for Him every second of everyday, whether it's convienient or not, whether I'm happy or sad, come what may, He is mine and I am His and I'm NOTHING at all without Him!

We also seem to forget that we must fear God above all, because as much as He loves us unconditionally, He can also get tired of calling our name, He could decide to stop patiently waiting for us to see the light, punish us for not heeding His word, so we always have to listen when He calls lest He refuses to hear us when we call...on the otherhand, I don't know anyone that has the patience, LOVE, mercy, forgviness, kindness, peace but our father in heaven, and I of all people, a first-hand sinner should know because I wudn't be so happy and so free after all that I've done against His will, denied Him and all sorts of abominable things...He is a merciful God and I will praise Him for as long as I live and share His word coz everyone needs to be FREE, besides, it's FREE...how cool is that? Jesus paid the price for me, for you, for all of us, so salvation is a free gift that once you accept sets you free! WOOHOO!!!!!! There is no explanation for the feeling of complete peace and wholeness that only God can give u...

Like Billy Graham said, you can't change your past-the good or the bad, that's a journey, your life journey BUT you can let GOD help you change your future! And that's forever, an eternity...
Ephesians 2:4-7 "When we are engaged in spiritual battles, we fight from a position above coz we are with Christ!" We are children of God seated with Christ-we have AUTHORITY, the armour of God and the name of Jesus Christ as our badge of authority, we're overcomers, we have overcome and we have to finish off on what Jesus started here on earth, we have to be the body of Christ now, do what HE did, what we can do anyway...visiting the sick in hospitals, prisoners, feeding the hungry, clothing the naked, giving away our LOVE, our TIME, the list is endless...I'm always ridden with guilt when I read that chapter in the Bible where Jesus says, I was hungry and u never fed me, naked and you didn't clothe me, in prison and u didn't visit me and the whole rest of that chapter...I'm sure those words will haunt a lot of us one day when we come before God...we do have now to change that though, all it takes is a commitment to do atleast one of those things, how many of us have closetfuls of clothes, shoes, that we really cud do without, I know I do...or how much do we spend on drinks and clubbin and all that useless stuff that will never add one cent to the riches we need to be storing up for in heaven...anyway, I know I have to change my lifestyle, I have to get out of my comfort zone and live like Jesus wants me to...I pray that God gives me the strength and courage to do so and that y'all can, too! Love & God BLESS!!!

A Christian by Maya Angelou...

2006-02-25T21:59:00.000-08:00

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,"
Now I'm found and forgiven.

When I say..."I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need CHRIST to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
and need HIS strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
and need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible but,
God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain,
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
who received God's good grace, somehow.

I LOVE IT!!

MAY IT BLESS U & MAY GOD BLESS YOU, TOO!!!

Giving thanks!

2006-02-05T12:24:00.000-08:00

"This is the day that the Lord has made, we will rejoice and be glad in it!"

I am feeling so exhilarated today, so happy to be alive, so refreshed! I'm loving life and I owe it all to you Jesus...thank you for being my saviour, without YOU, there'd be no me...I Love you Father, I love you Son, I Love you Holy Spirit, three persons in one!

I want to give thanks for all my wonderful friends who encourage me, keep me going, give me the strength and courage to face each day knowing that I'm not alone...reminding me that I have Jesus and that I have them...my spiritual family, I love you all and thank you for being such big blessings in my life!

E & P, u know there's gotta be a special part for y'all...mais (I'm learning) seriously, I can't even begin to explain how much you've changed my life...knowing you, learning from you, growing stronger in faith with you has just been one heck of a journey and still is...I'm forever thankful to God that our paths crossed...P, ur prayerful and happy spirit, makes my days brighter...E, ur warm and loving nature, has left a permanent mark in my heart...:) And ofcourse our crazy, hilarious laughing bouts are just the best medicine! Je t'aime beaucoup, moi deux soeurs?? Hope that's right...luv y'all like a fat kid loves cake...lol, actually more like botfrwl...E, I know u've forgotten so, bouncing on the floor rolling with laughter...haha!

And to that special someone ( E& P, ofcourse I'll keep u guessin...lol) uhhm, I'm totally speechless...u've been such a great friend and I'm so grateful for u...there's always this big huge grin on my face, thanks to you...I look forward to more laughter, more love, more you...luv ya & do keep on being the blessing that you are to me and to many...

To my crazy family, ur just the best, awesome peeps that I would never do without, I don't think any of u will ever read this, the non-computer bunch that you are but I love u nyway and I'm thankful for y'all...love u!!

I was just too hyped up and had to write an entry of shout-outs...I'm more than thankful for all my blessings!

P:S E, I was just listening to "Take my Life" by third day, it's absolutely amazing, love it! Thanks!

First day in the blogsphere!

2006-02-03T22:38:00.000-08:00

YAY! Hooray, woohoo for me...lol...Well, I'm super excited to be a part of the infamous, scratch that, notorious world of blogging! I've heard it's crazily addictive, too...well, that won't be a problem for me seeing how I'm a certified internet addict, I even go for meetings at IAA already, Internet Addicts Anonymous that is and they've been great...and ofcourse the first step toward recovery? Same old, man, admitting you have a problem and the rest is smooth sailing, baby! Deal with ur addiction head on which I am by starting a blog...:) Okay, I'm just trying to be a lil tiny bit funny but it might not be working especially since it's coming to 11pm and I've been up since 6am so as much as I want to make my first entry amazing, I really gotta go...gnite blogging world, GOD BLESS Y'ALL!